Sunday, May 10, 2009

Daily Blessings


Happy Mother's Day!




{My older brother, Dave, and I when we were kids @ Great Grandma Bessie's farm}

For all the mother's out there, I hope you are having a wonderful day!

As for me, today has been an eye-opener. This weekend has proven to be a challenge; not only physically, but emotionally, and spiritually. My husband & I got the call last Tuesday that my Great Grandmother had passed away, so Friday evening we headed down-home (about 5 hours South/East of us) so that we could attend the funeral on Saturday. About 10:45 pm out in the middle of nowhere an hour from our motel, we hit a deer head on going about 65 mph. Thankfully my husband was able to keep control of my Escape and coast to a stop in the gravel drive of a rural business. Luckily our cell phones had service and we were able to get in touch with highway patrol, also by some miracle my older brother was able to tow us and my disabled Ford home to Kansas City, so all in all, we have a ton to be thankful for. Even more so because our 3 year old daughter wasn't with us. In the end we were unharmed, (including the little bundle of joy that will be joining our family in early November) and only my SUV was damaged.



{my Escape after the accident}





{my Escape being towed by my older brother}




Now I will tell you that this is the first accident I have ever been in and although it was minor, compared to what many others have been through, I do not wish to ever have that happen again. It is absolutely terrifying when you know that you have no control what-so-ever. You also do a lot of soul searching after something like that; there are a lot of 'what ifs' that very well could have happened and didn't, so I know for a fact that we had someone out there watching over us...maybe it was my great grandma or maybe it was God...I don't really care @ this point, all I know is that my husband & I have been blessed and that's nothing short of a miracle.


When it comes to mourning the loss of a loved one - everyone deals with the process differently, I have shed my fair share of tears, but it's in the remembering that makes me happy & sad. I am so happy that I have so many memories of Grandma Bessie - I have been blessed to have had her in my life for 35 years - that's a lot of time shared; but it is also sad to me because I know that this chapter of my life has come to a close and that there will be no new memories made. But then, I am happy again because I think of all the people that she had to say good-bye to when she was here, 99 years worth, and now they are throwing her a party because she is finally HOME. I can't bring it upon myself to be selfish (even though I will miss her), she was ready to go and all I can do is trust that one day, when my time comes - she'll be waiting for me with open arms to welcome me home.



{Grandma Bessie @ her farm}


Love you so much Grandma - peace be with you now!

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